well scheduled

After enjoying my sumputuous breakfast-a blow of fish ball noodles and after cleaning my braces super carefully, I began to study. I checked my timetable, and suddenly realised that, OMG! my had miss the first two lecture on business law, which should be attend on both Friday and Saturday, when I was wandering in JP and waiting for my air tickets to China.



Above situation never happened before when I was a high school girl, but right now nobody supervised me as I was given a tacit on self-supervising well. I should be in principles as a 20 something should. Whereas in fact my life is always in a bad apple-pie order since the day I was coronate to be the queen of myself. It's much easier for me to be responsible to any other people than myself, while I admit it sounds a little auto sadism.



Besides all those nonsense, what in my mind is, make a calendar schedule, et c'est tout.

房子暴露的问题

To me, today is an awful day as yesterday. Troubles both in and out of expectation came out as they had ever made this decision together before. I should not tell mj my evil ideas on delaying to pay for the house that jzh and I rented at lakeside. But I did, I talked how I planned proudly. She laughed while suddenly I realized that I became a mean person in her heart and a girl who never worth to be her true friend at all. Besides, I should not complaint about my poor experience to zhj, such action looked like I was asking for his mercy.
The stupid scheming disturbed me from the morning lecture all the way to the end of the day; he took my time away so that I didn't touch my goal on study today, which is the worst part of the bad day. I should be in charge of my selfish and shortsighted worries. I should remind myself once again, THE LAST THING YOU NEED TO WORRY ABOUT IS $$$. I have a strong faith to believe that I will have money but not today.

完了 又到低谷期了

对我来说今天真的不怎么好。第一天从lakeside到学校费了很大的力气。课上的notes没有打印，忘记吃早餐，饿得咕咕叫；让学长等我；破鞋一点也不跟脚，后跟还被门划破；不会打粉底，搞得浮粉吧唧的，还脸白脖子黑；想去学习还一点也没学进去；6门core一门补的课在加日语和buzi law，目标必须是全部b+以上，没有人会帮我做决定，怎么办啊？？？？？

我有的时候想着把自己逼到绝境，可能就会逢生了，但也可能会坠崖啊？？？、

算了，不要想那么多了，就算什么都没有了，我还是我。我会做到了，今天就做，先把眼前的事做好比什么都重要。

谢谢倾听。去找一个笑容，然后去学一学~